To the one I’ll end up with:
Love is not easy. It never will be. So I hope that you can find your love for me in your heart, for when the time comes that your mind couldn’t process your love for me, I know that your heart will.
Love is just not about happiness. It is also about sacrifice, compromise, and a lot of other unpleasant things. So let’s make a very firm foundation of love, trust, and respect so that when the going gets tough, we will give it a good fight.
I hope that you won’t give up on me. I do not wake up at the right side of the bed all the time. Believe me, I have mood swings and it will drive you crazy. The good side that you see often is only half of who I am. I hope that you’d stay when you get to see the other half of me and believe me, it is not pleasant at all. I hope that you’d understand my insecurities and assure me that you are mine. I tend to get jealous; not that I don’t trust you, it’s just that I am afraid to lose you, I am afraid of losing someone that I love, I am afraid of getting hurt. I am afraid of a lot of things and I hope you’d banish that fear. I cannot say all of the bad things about me, I guess, it is for you to find out and I hope that when you do, you’d still think that I am worth the stay.
Make me believe, please. Understand that someone broke my heart into tiny pieces and although I took my time putting myself all together, the scar will be there. Mend that scar. Make me believe in love again because, honestly, right now, I don’t. Make me believe in love, make me want to love all over again. Make me believe that we could last a lifetime, because someone fucked up the meaning of “forever” for me. Give me a reason to wake up and look forward to each day, because right now, I don’t even know why I need to wake up anymore.
I loved someone so much and I thought that person is my greatest love. Surpass that. Be the one who is even greater than the greatest love that I had.
I hope that when God lets you in my life, I am ready. I want you to come at the right time because I don’t want to give you the burden of healing me. Trust me, I am trying to heal myself right now and I am not just trying, I am trying very hard.
And if ever you are meant for me, I hope you are meant to stay. I am already in the stage of life where all I want is something serious and something that would last.
And if ever you turn out to be the person who shattered my heart into pieces, my greatest love, I hope this time you already know my worth. I hope this time you are meant to stay.